Archive | May 2012

Woohoo

I think we have the place I wanted. I am really happy. I can totally picture our family there.

Giggles and whispers

After all those years with just one child, I am forever grateful for all my little sprouts.  I LOVE how much they love each other, how much they enjoy each other.  I love to hear them talking and playing and giggling together.  They are the best things I have ever been given and the chance to enjoy each other is the best thing that I have ever given them.

 

On the Waterfront

We had a great day yesterday at the waterfront.  We listened to buskers.  It was fun and the crowds really got into it.

Rose thought the buskers were too loud. LOL

There were lots of boats in the harbour.

We sat and watched the boats and the jelly fish in the water.

Doesn’t this look a little like that the cover of Beatles album, Abbey road?

We saw the Harbour Hopper on land, giving a tour.  I have always wanted to go for a ride on there.

We also saw the Harbour Hopper on the water too.

Wandering Aengus insisted that his girls deserved Cotton Candy.

Rose wanted no part of the Cotton Candy.  As far as she was concerned, it wasn’t food at all.  Lotus had some but then ripped the candy off and played with the stick. LOL

Lilly had no problems with the Cotton Candy and ate it ALL up!

This man was fun singing a song about the boardwalk.

I have seen this guy at the farmer’s market and wanted to get a pic of him.   Since Wandering Aengus wore a kilt to our wedding, I have a soft spot for a man in a kilt.

The wooden statues outside the stores reminded me of that old song by Charlie Pride, “Kaw liga”

Lilly was pretend to slay the bear with her balloon sword.

I love the decor of the shops down at the waterfront, lots of wood and stone and barrels.

We watched the busker make balloon animals and got all the kids (except Reed at 2 months old, it seems unnecessary. LOL)

Wandering Aengus got me a balloon flower.

I loved the railway tracks.  Since they are still active, Wandering Aengus vetoed any pics with people on the tracks.*pout*

The girls loved the ferry ride.  It is fun that for the price of a bus fare, we get a chance to go for a ride on the water.

We had snacks while watching the buskers.

Ugh!

I have food issues.  I always have.  I need one place where I am honest with my feelings and my inner crazy thoughts.  So in amongst the happy happy mommy posts and my recipes and my vegetarian thoughts, here is where I spill those thoughts that overwhelm me.

I feel guilty. I had a big lunch of vegan macaroni and cheez. It was thick and yummy and it was NOT low fat and it was WAY too many calories and I am sitting here nearly in tears because I wasn’t strong enough not to eat so very much lunch.

Little Things

There are little things about having my baby that I want to cherish. Things I want to remember when he is older: the feel of his cheek against mine, the way he breaths quick heavy breaths as he is getting ready to fall asleep, the way he giggles in his sleep, how he can not drink a bottle without some dripping down his little chin, and how he stops crying the minute I pick him up. I even want to remember how he is absolutely against me eating, ever, at any point. It is so funny. The minute I think about food, he fusses to be fed. I feed him and then I get up to make me food and as I finish (no matter how quickly I grab something), he fusses to be fed again. Then as I sit down to eat my now room temperature food, he fusses again. I never get to eat unless someone else is here and takes him for a cuddle for a few minutes. Even then, after I am done, I have to cuddle him for a while. But I don’t mind. I just soak up every cuddle I can. I know how how quickly he will be too busy to stop and cuddle his mommy and I will remember all those cuddles, the ones when I was hungry, the ones when I was busy and all the kids wanted me at once, and even early in the morning hours before the sun is awake and I am half snoozing in our cuddle. He is sweet. He is so worth it.

yummy tofu!

It sounds like a contradiction in terms but I am addicted to tofu!  I love it and I make it a little spicy.

Here is how I do it.  The amounts are flexible.

1/4 cup nutritional yeast
1 tsp cornstarch
1/2 tsp salt (I add more sometimes because I like it it salty and spicy)
1/2 tsp garlic powder
1/8 tsp cayenne pepper

I cook in a little non-stick spray in a pan. I make sure to not move it or touch it all until it is crispy on one side and then turn it and do the same thing. It makes a fabulous sandwich. Today I cut my tofu into cubes and added extra cayenne pepper and made spicy tofu nuggets for my lunch. SO GOOD!

Confessions

Okay so here’s the thing.  I hate my stomach.  My girls will be silly and jump on my and watch my belly jiggle and I hate it.  I know I just had a baby but when I look at it, it has the look of homemade bread that has risen and then started to be punched down.  It is jiggly and fluffy and not attractive AT ALL.

I feel so desperate for the yuckiness to go away.  I have to watch myself because there are days when I would do anything to lose weight and look better.